Happy 4th Birthday Sweetie!

To mommy's little chatterbox.. Have a blessed fourth Birthday!! We pray that God will bless you abundantly and fills your heart with more love and wisdom.

How time flies ... today you are Four! I wish if we can just stop the clock from ticking and keep you as a baby forever. Forever our baby girl. I remember how tiny you were when you were born, you led out the first cry and then the doctor placed you on my chest. As a first time mom, I just couldn't stop checking on you every seconds and made sure you were alright. Time passed too fast... you have grown up to be such a big girl now. You are independent, you do things on your own, you take care of your little brother when mommy is busy .. you have so many strength inside of you and I just couldn't thank God enough for blessing us with you, our most wonderful gift on earth!

We treasure every moments with you ..you have indeed brought us so much tears, joys and laughter in this family.

We pray that you will grow up knowing and loving your father in Heaven, be filled with all the wisdom, understanding and knowledge that He has and with this, I can just rest assured that you will grow up well in your life.. because God will do the rest. =)

Happy Birthday my dearest daughter! We love you always and forever.. and you will forever be our dearest baby girl!

Yeay to Potty Training!

Few months ago, we tried to potty train him but it wasn't successful. The very first time, I brought him to the potty and he just refused to sit on the potty. His legs will cling to my legs like a koala whenever I tried to put him down. Ok then, I decided to wait few more weeks. And it was the same. No signs of him loving to sit on the potty. But, he can pee on the toilet floor when I asked him to. This pretty means he's ready to be trained, the only fear in him is to sit on the potty. Which I don't know why. The big hole I guess? Haha. 

The following month, I tried to potty train him again. By faith, we went diaper-less and pant-less! Only the t-shirt for the entire day (except for sleeping time). It was a huge disaster! There was no problem with pee-pee because every 30mins, I brought him to the toilet to pee pee on the floor and not the potty. He just refused to sit on the potty! Sigh. After dinner, I noticed some signs of him wanting to poo. I quickly brought him to the potty and again, failed! He ended up poo poo on the toilet floor. T__T

I told myself, he wasn't ready and we shall just go back to diaper. 

Many more months later, I tried to put him on the potty and initially, he refused but I forced a little while trying to distract him with his favorite milo nuggets and voila, he sat on the potty for a good 5 mins!! I knew in my heart it was time to train him. 

This week, we went diaper-less and pant-less and even though he still really can't control his pee, there were few accidents in the day when I forgot to bring him to pee. Yesterday night was a huge success when he knew the urged to poo, he went to the toilet himself, trying to climb up the potty placed on the toilet bowl. Thank God I saw it and quickly placed him on the potty. Within seconds, he poo-ed a bomb in the toilet bowl! I was so so so happy that I cheered him on as he poo-ed. And there was a huge smile on his face, he felt the sense of achievement when I clapped as he poo-ed. 

2 years 4 months, little brother is potty trained! Well done baby!!

Believe.. My help comes from the Lord!

Three more months to 1 year that I tendered my resignation. I wonder if I've ever made the right decision. Looking at my kids today..  I knew I've made the right decision ever..

But at low times... My brain just couldn't think positive and I think, how nice if life is still the same. Staying in the 3 bedrooms condo. Having a job in hand. A paycheck every month that I can spend and not feeling guilty. And yes, I will still have my ever ready life-saver.. My babysitter. 

I used to have the luxury of having a nice and ever ready babysitter. We get to go for a date after work. Sometimes we can even catch a nice movie together. Or when I wasn't well, my babysitter was there to help. Or if I need a one day off just to catch up with my sleep. And when I gave birth to Daniel, my babysitter helped all out with Ashlynn without asking for extra fees. Blessings! All I need is just a phone call and her simple answer of 'yes, sure can' gave me such peace that I have someone that I can rely on in times of needs. 

Today, who can I turn to? Sometimes I felt so lost and everyone seems to be so far away. Guess it's a no turning back now. 

Today, I have to learn and trust from the Bible that my help comes from the Lord. Thinking of the future really makes me feel so weak. Sometimes I just couldn't find the strength to go on. I need support. A simple 'yes, i can help you' definitely will make me cry in joy. All I can do now is not to forget that God exists. Even though men are not available all the time, but God's helpline is always ready. 

My help comes from the Lord!