When I was young, I always envisioned myself working in a big company with a big position, but life is full of surprises. It's like a box of chocolate. Would I really just “throw it all away”? Should I just sing "Let it go?"..........
2011. The day our little princess greeted us in this world, deep down in my heart I silently wished that how nice if I'm a SAHM. 2 months of maternity leave passed by just like that, and on the first day I dropped her off at the babysitter, I cried. I was so sad. Looking at other moms who have the privilege to stay at home with their baby makes my heart ache even more. I don't mind the paycheck, I don't mind the luxury to buy things, I don't mind the simple lifestyle.. all I want and need is to play the role as a mother. I don't want to get separated from my child.
2 years later in 2013 we gave birth to a beautiful baby boy. And the urge to stay at home became stronger.
We discussed among each other, what we can do, how we can save up to settle our debts (car/house loan) so that by the time we make the decision, we are debt free. That is our dream. Our new goal.We talked to both our parents and we thank God for parents like them. Without them, this dream will remain a dream. And we will never ever dare to dream of living on just one paycheck. We look highly on our parents, our role model, and we want to be like them. Parents that love their children wholeheartedly. Unconditional love. Looking at who we are today, where we stand today, it is all because of the sacrifices our parents made.
Being a stay at home parent can be a very worthwhile experience and yet it can also be a scary decision to make. With the price hike, increased in tuition fees, GST in few more months.. can we still afford to pay off the bills. Oh yeah, electricity bills are going up too. Recent news : no more subsidies for RON95. Great. This is scary. 20 years later when the kids are ready for university, the money that we saved up means Nothing! Perhaps that savings can only pay off their year One tuition fees.
We're at the crossroad. Both paths are scary because we do not know what the future lies ahead of us. Ultimately, we followed our heart, we surrender our future to God and I ditched the allures of the corporate world. Did I feel any better after making this decision? Not really. I felt sad tho. Deep down in my heart, I knew this is the best decision ever. But, another part of me, I felt so incapable. I felt lousy that I have to fully rely on my husband now. That my husband has to work harder, extra harder. Oh wait, I should be happy right. I can be with my children 24x7, ain't this a happy decision?
I have two more days before I leave the company. I finally signed the resignation letter early this month and I knew, there is no turning back. Friends from all over provided me with their "reviews" on my resignation to be a SAHM.
* Carysse, give you 6 months. I'm sure you will be back
* Carysse, why you decided to do this? Coming out to work is more fun, more colors in your life.
* Carysse, you are so "wei da".
* Carysse, staying at home will make you outdated. You only live within the walls. You need to come out and see the world.
* Carysse, hopefully the next time I see you, I won't see a double you. (he's saying I will be double fat)
* Carysse, your children are lucky to have mom like you. A huge sacrifice.
* Look at her face. A sao nai nai face. The first day I look at her, I knew she won't work long. She has the sao nai nai face. Stay-at-home face.
* Carysse everyday will chase after children.
But here are some encouragements from my fellow SAHM friends...
* Children are the best treasures of the earth because if we raise them well, we are contributing the best to the society
* I no longer think about pacyheck. I only think of budgeting and my child's emotional growth development
* My baby is only a baby once
Anyway, being a SAHM or not, we are still mothers. We give the best to our children. Since we have chosen this path for our family, we pray and uphold our future to Him. I might or might not go back to work , it all depends on situation. For now, we have made this decision and we hope and pray for the best.
2011. The day our little princess greeted us in this world, deep down in my heart I silently wished that how nice if I'm a SAHM. 2 months of maternity leave passed by just like that, and on the first day I dropped her off at the babysitter, I cried. I was so sad. Looking at other moms who have the privilege to stay at home with their baby makes my heart ache even more. I don't mind the paycheck, I don't mind the luxury to buy things, I don't mind the simple lifestyle.. all I want and need is to play the role as a mother. I don't want to get separated from my child.
2 years later in 2013 we gave birth to a beautiful baby boy. And the urge to stay at home became stronger.
We discussed among each other, what we can do, how we can save up to settle our debts (car/house loan) so that by the time we make the decision, we are debt free. That is our dream. Our new goal.We talked to both our parents and we thank God for parents like them. Without them, this dream will remain a dream. And we will never ever dare to dream of living on just one paycheck. We look highly on our parents, our role model, and we want to be like them. Parents that love their children wholeheartedly. Unconditional love. Looking at who we are today, where we stand today, it is all because of the sacrifices our parents made.
Being a stay at home parent can be a very worthwhile experience and yet it can also be a scary decision to make. With the price hike, increased in tuition fees, GST in few more months.. can we still afford to pay off the bills. Oh yeah, electricity bills are going up too. Recent news : no more subsidies for RON95. Great. This is scary. 20 years later when the kids are ready for university, the money that we saved up means Nothing! Perhaps that savings can only pay off their year One tuition fees.
We're at the crossroad. Both paths are scary because we do not know what the future lies ahead of us. Ultimately, we followed our heart, we surrender our future to God and I ditched the allures of the corporate world. Did I feel any better after making this decision? Not really. I felt sad tho. Deep down in my heart, I knew this is the best decision ever. But, another part of me, I felt so incapable. I felt lousy that I have to fully rely on my husband now. That my husband has to work harder, extra harder. Oh wait, I should be happy right. I can be with my children 24x7, ain't this a happy decision?
I have two more days before I leave the company. I finally signed the resignation letter early this month and I knew, there is no turning back. Friends from all over provided me with their "reviews" on my resignation to be a SAHM.
* Carysse, give you 6 months. I'm sure you will be back
* Carysse, why you decided to do this? Coming out to work is more fun, more colors in your life.
* Carysse, you are so "wei da".
* Carysse, staying at home will make you outdated. You only live within the walls. You need to come out and see the world.
* Carysse, hopefully the next time I see you, I won't see a double you. (he's saying I will be double fat)
* Carysse, your children are lucky to have mom like you. A huge sacrifice.
* Look at her face. A sao nai nai face. The first day I look at her, I knew she won't work long. She has the sao nai nai face. Stay-at-home face.
* Carysse everyday will chase after children.
But here are some encouragements from my fellow SAHM friends...
* Children are the best treasures of the earth because if we raise them well, we are contributing the best to the society
* I no longer think about pacyheck. I only think of budgeting and my child's emotional growth development
* My baby is only a baby once
Anyway, being a SAHM or not, we are still mothers. We give the best to our children. Since we have chosen this path for our family, we pray and uphold our future to Him. I might or might not go back to work , it all depends on situation. For now, we have made this decision and we hope and pray for the best.
